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Afraid of the Dark?
by Paula Guran
Erik, the eight year old, entered the study and plopped down on a chair
amid the stacks of books on the floor near my overflowing desk.
"I thought you were watching that Goosebumps video with your
brother."
"I am."
"Seems to me you are in here," I said, turning back to the monitor
and
keyboard. Maternal inquisitiveness is best balanced with something of a
perfunctory air.
"Just for now."
"Ah, is it a scary part just now?"
"No, not really. I mean I have seen it before."
Pause. Maternal inquisitiveness is also best served with silence at
times.
"Well, maybe it's a little scary because it's night."
"Oh, like the book covers then." Mention of book covers made him
glance
down at my piles of horror books. We had discovered that the
sometimes-lurid covers of the books mommy was always knee deep in
weren't scary during the day, while at night they often were. There was
a way to defeat them, though. You turned them over and remembered they
were just books. If you were still a little
nervous, you put another book on top of them. That always did the trick.
"Yeah, the dark makes things scarier."
The dark does make things scarier. It always has. Our
ancestors
lived in a world divided much more completely into light and darkness.
At first the night was relieved only with firelight, then with fire
contained by lanterns and candles. Flickering, fragile light that, for
all its comfort, cast shadows and deepened the surrounding darkness with
its contrast. Even now in our electrified world, we still avoid certain
places at night -- because danger can be so easily hidden in the dark.
Of course the dark conceals real dangers, whether they are
saber-tooth
tigers or crackheads lying in wait. But our feelings go deeper than
that, as if they have been hard-wired in. The dark is disorienting
--symbolically, we equate it with evil and the negation of light. And
it's this deep association from our species' past, this psychological
effect, that makes things scarier in the dark.
But now, protected by the magic of electricity and the relative
safety
of our daily life, perhaps we are more inclined to take a walk on the
dark side. When a flick of a switch dispels what scares us, perhaps we
are better able to appreciate its enchantments, its beauty.
Maybe horror is like that for some people, too. None of us want to
deal
with real horror in our lives, but for some folks even fictional scares
need to be taken in small doses. Like Erik, who can control his rampant
imagination by remembering "it is just a book" and hiding a scary
picture, or walking away from the television screen, they can set their
own limits, find just the right amount of fear to make it fun.
Reading horror is not like that for me most of the time, though. What
makes a satisfying read for me is an extended, if protected, stay in the
dark. A chance to explore that darkness and discover something more than
just a cheap thrill. I like the kind of horror that makes you think,
that confronts you with ideas or imagery that can't be forgotten once
you close the covers -- or turn the cover over, for that matter.
But Erik isn't ready for that, and neither are a lot of
grown-ups. Which is, of course, just fine. Within horror you can find
anything from the slightest of shivers to the most profound
frights. It all just depends on the wattage of your personal
inner-nightlight.
"Mom?"
"Yup?"
" Are you afraid of the dark?"
"Nope, not really."
"I'm not either... especially when the lights are on."
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